Back in the saddle again...

A week of highs and lows. I went in Tuesday for my filler-up and received 120cc on each side--which is a lot of freaking saline, lemme tell you. I was cleared for "normal activity" and allowed to drive again--woohoo! It was so nice to be able to drive this week. Saved me from a serious case of the crazies.

I have been pretty sore all week due to the fill and edema, which my PS (plastic surgeon) says will come and go. When it comes, it sucks. Feels like rocks are filling my chest. Unpleasant, very unpleasant. The PS says he is really happy with my progress so far and that everything is healing well and stretching as much as possible. We estimated that I will have to do about 4-6 more fills before I reach the size I want to be. Technically, I could have my replacement surgery for the silicone implants as early as a month after my last fill, however, my mind and body might not do so well if we try to schedule it anytime soon. If the expanders feel less horrible in the future, I'd like to wait until the fall to do the replacement surgery. It will involve outpatient surgery under general anesthesia, and a full week without use of my arms. Sounds great, right? What wonderful choices breast cancer has given me--surgery or expander pain. I love my life!

I plan to go back to work on Monday, probably for half days until I can handle more activity. Every day I can stretch my arms more, and every day I feel a little better in general. The pain can still be debilitating, but at least it is debilitating for shorter and shorter periods of time. I've been depressed on and off, but you try living with pain for almost a month solid, I guarantee it would depress you too. Being able to do more out of the house seems to help some and yoga helps a lot. I can't do all the poses, but I modify as I need to and it has been great to stretch out my poor back muscles after so long in bed.  I'm scheduled for a massage tomorrow to work out some of the soreness, but it will probably take a lot more than one massage for this bod to get rid of the tightness that has built up over the past month.

Thanks for visiting me this week Joan, Melissa, and Graciela. It was so nice to see you all and catch up on all the latest. Here's to summer!